The Bell Jar, Ch. 13-14

To start it all off, there are multiple things, and I mean a whole bunch of things, that are wrong with Esther now, and to list them all would take a considerable amount of time and I wouldn't end up fully answering this question. Her main problem is that she can't take everyone looking at her as some crazy person, and trying to fix her through various, usually harmful, methods. So she tries to kill herself so she wouldn't be such a burden on the rest of her family, and also she could end her torture of living this way.